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not much happened this week, i gotta admit!

i applied for my first scholarship: a $500 leadership award ran by my school. it was kind of scary, ngl. i saw at least 3 other people handing in forms for other scholarships, which made me nervous. someone said that like no one applies for these things, which is really weird?? i swear its the #1 thing people say when telling people how to pay for college--which! is why im so nervous! man, competing with millions of other applicants is so intimidating TT i wonder whats the average amount of scholarship money people get awarded? i wonder how many people actually apply to these things, if its apparently few? i saw one scholarship listing for art/lgbt students in my area, but one of the conditions was that we had to attend college in the surrounding area TT curse me and my wanderlust!

txt debuted this week! i gotta say, their music totally grew on me. it's definitely not what i usually like, and there are some, um... ahem. furry lyrics? but some of this shit is so catchy. cat & dog, specifically ?? lmfao.. im shaking my head at my own taste. there's just something so nice about the cute piano and the background trap beats, and the way hueningkai and yeonjun spit the chorus fsdkjf and yeonjun's verse??? specifically this part, when he says "네 주위를 지키지, 으르렁해!" bro.. his rolled ㄹ? NUT

alright.

someone made an edit for my space fic??? i am so honored? so blessed? so happy? like omg what did i do to deserve this... pure happiness! i screamed out all my feelings at op, so im just gonna leave the link there for future me to reflect on.

i've also noticed that most of these weekend roundup things consist of what i saw only today and not throughout the week.. oops

ah! yoongi's bday! that happened!! i didnt do anything for it :-( but his vlive was so funny, and seokjin posted an almost?? (unsure if it counts??) yoonjin selfie on twt, of their fishing trip! now im going to have to wait until 2020 to get another selfie TT curse u seokjin..

this week i've found myself watching youtube more! specifically jenna marbles's videos of her dogs, and some of her and her bf julian's vlogs. i used to watch jenna way back when youtube was first a thing and she was posting in like college or something?? wild how we all grow up together.

here are my favorite lines i wrote this week!

But when Yoonji tries to hold her hand, when she fixes her hair for her, when her hand slips down to the small of her back--Sujin turns inward. She goes red, laughing, not cornered but panicked like she is.

And then, when she leans in?

God does she lean in.

link section!

this art, which i saw this week and was super amazed by! their style is so interesting?? i feel like ive never seen an art style that incorporated big eyes that weren't?? anime inspired. this reminds me more of tove jansson's art style for the comics of moomin! huge insp, regardless
this drarry fanart that is fucking amazing... i dont even ship that. im just awed.
a spoiler free guardian starter kit! thought i'd keep this for reference
this guardian fanvid, which is beautiful and amazing and wonderful. omg. i love gays (more fanvids for later reference!)
music!
- focus on me by jus2 -- ! this came out recently, and its sooooo good. the person who recced this to me totally gave them a backhanded compliment, which was so weird?? i ended up blocking them anyway. LMAO. at least the song is good!
- dalla dalla by itzy -- this was also super good, and a recent listen ! they just debuted and theyre like?? monster rookies ? or whatever its called. they got a win super super fast! and ngl.. these girls make me so gay. omg. i love them.
- txt's music, to make things easy
- foot fungus by ski mask the slump god -- some vulgar rap, we don't quite stan but we do jam
- why by shawn mendes -- the only soft boy

and that's a wrap!